I was going to share about Shan’s dance competition from this past weekend, but it will wait.
Then I thought I would just write my memories of the bombing of the Alfred P. Murrah building in Oklahoma City, but realized that while those memories might mean something to me, several may have no meaning to you. So I thought I would just share some of them and what I learned from that day.
There will be no pictures – the real life scenes of that day and the days that followed are forever seared into my memory, and for me that is enough.
Everyone has defining moments or events in their lives. Some, like our weddings and births of our babies, bring joy. Others bring tears, sorrow, and pain. All can bring about personal and spiritual growth, if we allow it.
Many of you know that Tim and I were living in OKC in 1995, attending Mid-America Christian University. That morning, I was in the music department practicing piano – basically passing time before the memorial service for my friend, who had just been killed in a car accident, was to begin. After the service, I was going to rush to my job at Weokie Credit Union. At 9:15 I decided to go to the bookstore and get my daily fix of Otis Spunkmeyer cookie dough. As I was paying for my purchase, I heard the radio announcer report the bombing. My first thought was that there had been another bombing in the Middle East – so what – they seemed to happen all the time.
Lesson learned: I had become desensitized to death and tragedy that wasn’t immediately affecting my personal life.
There are other lessons I learned, or re-learned from that day and the days that followed.
* While we may think we are in control of our lives, God is ultimately in control.
*While God is ultimately in control, he gives us free will to make choices – whether good or bad – that may affect the lives of many.
That evening, during women’s Bible study, we learned that Jill Randolph, the daughter of one of our church board members had been killed. It was his wedding anniversary, but now is the anniversary of his daughter’s death. Another family that attended our church had been at the building at 9:00 a.m., but having realized they had forgotten an important paper, left just one minute before the blast.
When I arrived at work the following day, I was informed that I would be working for the Federal Employees Credit Union for the next few weeks (they had been located in the Murrah building – this was also where Jill worked). The FECU had been set up at a temporary location, and credit unions around the city were “donating” employees to help them get back up and running. While many of the tasks proved to be very difficult (like trying to balance the vault), the most difficult task I was assigned for a few of the days was to answer phones. I had a list of employees who had been killed, still missing, wounded, or were okay, and it was my job to give those calling for information the status of their friends and relatives. I specifically remember one phone call I took – T.V cameras were stuck in my face as I was telling one woman of the death of her sister. I found myself becoming angry. Angry at the whole situation that had brought me to this moment, and angry at the camera crew for being so callous.
Lesson: Not every cares about the personal pain in people’s lives, some are just out for a good story or to sensationalize the pain of others.
Probably the biggest lesson ‘re-learned’ was that Jesus died for Timothy McVeigh too.
In my Biblical Life & Witness class, the students were discussing the many ways we would like to take revenge upon Timothy McVeigh – I’m sure most of us were using the “eye-for-eye, tooth-for-tooth” principle. However, my professor used our conversation to remind us of the fact that Jesus didn’t just die for us, he also died for the Timothy McVeighs in the world, and if he (Timothy) decided to give his heart to Jesus, he would in fact be our brother in Christ and we would see him in heaven.
While you are going about your day today, I ask that you remember the families of those who lost their family members and friends on this day 15 years ago. Time does ease the pain, but nothing can bring back the people who were lost.